shivers

i'm trying really hard not to dread going back to school on the 14th, but i can't help it. i never liked isu and i am trying to piece together all the reasons of how and why i ended up there. i think i've finally figured it out. it seems that throughout my life i've always been told what to do and how to do it and when it came down to something that was going to directly affect my future, i froze. i listened to what everyone else was telling me to do, and here i am, unhappy.

happiness isn't worth jeopardizing just to make someone else happy or to win their approval.

next year i'm starting over. i'm going to niu in hopes of fulfilling my urge to complete an art degree. i'm not exactly sure what i want to do with it, but along the way i'll figure it out. now is my time to find out what i really want in life and to listen to my heart.

i'm happy though because i got an a in both of my english classes, a b in biology, and a b in spanish. i ended up passing math which means i got credit for the class. hoorah for 16 hours!

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on another note, john mayer's solos are orgasmic. have you ever listened to a song and it made you shiver? well that's how i feel whenever i hear john mayer. that sexy beast. watch this vid and tell me it didn't send chills up and down your spine during his solo (which starts at like, 5 minutes).

greatwhitecity: did you see his face

sppppppppspeaker: the way he shivers that guitar

sppppppppspeaker: god i want him to use his fingers on me like he does with his guitar

sppppppppspeaker: lmao

greatwhitecity: hahahhahahah

greatwhitecity: me too



yum, okay, now it's time to watch that video 245348750283 times over again.